Friday, October 27, 2006

Thursday Evening

Jim ripped my heart out tonight. He kept begging me to take him home, just for tonight, or he would be dead by morning. I was sobbing, and had to leave.

I asked the nurse about the ICU protocol about a patient's death. He said that if the nurse felt Jim would not survive, they would call me in, regardless of the ICU visiting hours.

Jim's platelet count is still virtually nonexistent--4--even though he seems to be bleeding less. The nurse said that on Wednesday the DRs sent a blood sample to an outside lab, thinking that maybe Jim has some autoimmune condition that is eating up the transfused platelets and hemoglobin.

4 comments:

Alice said...

((Venita)) Just want you to know I am here. Sending lots of love your way.

XOXOXO
Alice

{Steve Rapaport} said...

Venita this must be tearing you up! It's hard to say any of the feelings I get reading about your journey, since I'm afraid they'd make you sadder or angrier! But I'm thinking them anyway!

Martha and Alley Cat said...

I have you both in my prayers.... and I'm so sorry for your pain.
m & ac

cindy said...

Venita - This is so hard to watch you go through and not know how to ease the journey. I wish that Jim can find peace, and strenfth, and you too.

Love, Cindy